When I embarked on this month-long journey, I was kinda looking forward to it. Looking forward to having a job again, feeling as if I were pulling my weight in this fight we call life, looking forward to having something to do every day. Looking forward to being able to work this "last month" before we start on the no money way of life losing a job creates.
Well.
Now, I think "What the hell was I thinking?!" I am sore and tired and grumpy from lack of sleep. I CAN DO ANYTHING FOR ONE MONTH was my thinking last week. HA!! It hasn't even been I week, and here I am second-guessing myself already.
It's not the work. The work itself is not hard. I sit in a chair and open mail, and sort what comes out of the envelopes. It's the not seeing Ron or the rest of my family, it's the upside-down way of life that 3rd shift demands, it's not having any kind of life outside of working or sleeping, it's driving over 35 miles ONE WAY just to "do my share," it's the worry about my health that has started (I have a bump on my leg - not sure if it is a varicose vein, or if my legs are swelling from sitting so much) and so on and so on and so on. It's the not knowing about the money - I have to record what I make for unemployment, but I haven't received any of said money yet (I will get a two-day paycheck tomorrow) - and how is this gonna mess up my unemployment? thoughts. I am hoping that, since this is a seasonal job, I can pick right back up where I was. But, I'm sure it really won't be that easy.
One month - 30 days. I really can do this. I can do anything for one month!!
6 down, 24 to go. And I will probably have to work each and every one of them. Sigh.
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